I felt the tightness in my chest this morning. Usually, I get this tightness when I’m avoiding dealing with something in my life, or I haven’t yet discovered the answer for how to deal with it. This morning, I was tired of being yelled at.
Our son Darrin has severe autism and Tourette’s. So, when he’s upset or doesn’t agree with something, he can’t just tell you what’s wrong or roll his eyes like a normal teenager. Often times, it comes out in yelling and saying something from one of his favorite cartoons that is the problem they’re trying to resolve in the episode.
For example, I told him, “Darrin, you have a school zoom meeting. Brush your teeth and put on your clothes, please.”
His response is shouting, “we can’t get across the bridge unless you bring me a dam”.
Since I’m still learning Darrin and how to interact with him, I can’t tune out the yelling and it hits me where I get a tightness. Of course when I talk to Denise she reminds me he yells at her, too. So the next thing for me to do is get to a quiet place, breathe, and get back to stillness. Since I know I can choose to take it personally, or let it roll off, I have to take responsibility for my emotions and well being.
There is that reliable proverb “if you don’t have time to meditate for an hour everyday, meditate for two.”
The other side of that is that I also notice that I had stopped taking CBD daily. We have a 10mg softgel that I usually take so I have a constant level of CBD in my system. Usually, this helps with overall balance. For some reason, I forgot one day and then the next. So, I’m going to start that routine again. For our line of CBD, go HERE
Stay well, friends. You are important.
No comment yet, add your voice below!